yesterday!^^

woke up at 7.30am bath then get a few stuff ready for college..

get out from the hse at 9 reach college at 9.15am then when to block Q waiting for my slot for the tamadun islam exam..nervous scaed cold etcetc..15min later...................

yeah!!!!i pass my tamadun islam score 32/50 is ok compare my first which is 18/50 dai sai play2 during exam dats wat i get..hehe..just 5minutes after i when out from the exam room poofss!no electric hahax..

pity for derek hes at his 17 ques then no electric he still have to come the next saturday...omg!its late 10.20 late for my drawing exam..

run from block Q to dkabe god hot leh..waste my energy for running reach there no exam..== god~~~ then decide with the group go out n eat at desa starpark^^normal place nothing special~then took LRT with derek jeff chin hui n lynn to terminal my mum drove there then i drive back home..haiz..on9 check mail then nap..

at 4 go out to klcc walk at 1st wanna c movie but nothing dat i really wanna c..sad then no where to go lazy walk far went to kinokuniya bought books^^love them cost my mum RM50.70

best seller leh sure want buy la.. then have dinner cost my mum RM30 after dat walk to teddy tales bought sum nasty stuff so0 scared the lil rascal hahax i damn cruel have to0 shes noughty tak tahan! after dat went to choc shop buy sum gummy candy after dat when to digi center fix my msg line"digi sux u noe" it took me 20 min there but finnaly is ok^^ at first rite after digi center just walking to toilet but................ suddenly got pple shouting" buy1 free 1 all item buy 1 free 1 2hours to go"turn my head o0uuuhhh is giordano shirt yeah...the shop look like pasar malam hahax...got myself 2shirt dat cost rm55 buy 1 free 1 leh... waaaaaa......

shop alot jor...cham...but hey shopping wat i do best^^ here sum photos

Rm50.70

Rm26

Rm55

RM131+Rm5 for gummy candy=Rm136^^

p/s:later will post sum photo how the rascal react bout the masty stuff^^ now wan nap 1st =B

hurm~im tired of it!

haiz..

life seem realy darn hatic..seriously i hate living like dis...

is to0 stress tension...then frens seem don bother anymore...

all pile up on me...i cant take it, i really cant..but at the time i cant quit im the only child my parents only hope gosh~~~then arghh my relative keep on looking down on me...im to0 dumb for them...they nvr satisfic wat ever theres in me..im the blacksheep...i guess...

but im still asking y???alot of questioning here and there for example:frens seem don bother me anymore???just because i'm damn fucking emo the last month???or wat???and they woundnt listen any of my suggestion...so0 i don really bother anymore to give any suggestion just act dumb is the best way but to tell u the trust i don like been treated like dat...hope to finish dis sem fast so0 i can distance myself from them give some space to breath or maybe lost contact for awhile..Later going to retake my tamadun islam exam then taking my drawing exam right after the tamadun...god~~~ then mybe planning go klcc or petaling street to find sum items to do sum personal photography...i tink theres about it "the update"

sex???wat the F^*&k!

well today college seems ok to me...
had lunch with the group..but most talk n joking with geeyew...
he like to play"sakat" me round lol..
at 1st we when to lunch with 3 cars then back with 2 cars..
god...how pack is it????and very scary ride back to0..god~~~~
then all the blablablabla at college till 5 then when home on9..check my mails..
then sudenly pop out dis msg at my tagged account..wtf! theres this guy i tink like an idiot i should say..
his msg was like dis... sex sex sex...
then i reply his msg with dis..:wat the crap?!?!?
wat a moron he is:ellleeeehhh crap la konon...some rubbish he type i forget bout it..
then my reply was:eh if u are to desprate go n find bitches out there theres tons of them idiot!
and dis moron is really a moron: eh are u chinese???if chinese now wonder u are smelly???
(translation from malay msg)the type of gurl u are just a dessert..
wtf! he is!!!!
then as usually fight back man!
my reply was who say im chinese???are u blind or wat???
lolx..
im telling u he is a really MORON assHOLE in one guy man!
oo then u are smelly malay???hahahahax u don even now how to suck a stick a.k.a PENIS!!!!
he is seriously in really critical condition eeeuuwww...
vomit man..dude if i wan do i find a better person ur face is like my grandma ass... so0 dude just an advise find a mirror plz~~~~~~~~~~


at the end i block dis moron..
no use to waste my time replying to dis particular moron+++assHOLE in one jackASS..
i better use my time to SLEEP...

love marriage n DIVORCE.....god~~~

sorry for the late update...don feel like i care much anymore bout blog life seem very hatic lately... alot tings happen so0 fast sumtimes i wonder why???why??and why??? u sometimes felt envy if u see couples dat are so0 happie then they step into a new stage, a stage dat in life u need to give and take understand each other all around we called it "COMMUNICATION!" once a marriage doesnt have dat then there! comes all the shouting beating hate. All this happen because of ego,hard headed, and etc etc... u cant settle the problem u find and a shortcut wheres this big D came in. if dis big D is just between two pple its ok, but wat if a child that doesnt noe anything to young to accept all dis aldult problem??? how do u feel parent choose to have separate life then a child doesnt noe anyting bout it???then sudenly a child miss mum n dad say to u with a sad eyes i wan go home..dad hse n mum hse...then reach home mum is not there asking u wheres mum???n u cant answer that u try to lie by answering mums working...how long will dis be going on??? feel pity for the child dat is so0 naive wat happen to her parents...hope the big D haven finalise if not god who noes wat will happen..

then bout college life i donnoe why so0 fast i get sien with drawing!!! to many work god cant he tink dat we theres still other sub dat we need to do???is been a week i din sleep at nite...to0 tired =(

15NOV08

hurm just complited 20% of oli assignment still have alot more to go...
hurm while doing my assignmt chat with jeffrey...din really concerntrate doing the design just don feel like it...i guess im losing it or not...coz lately im more into photography i just don get it...argghh... while msging i let out all my frustration on jeff hes ok if u have a prob kinda feels gud chat with him...

i hate u and u and u and u all of you GUA~~~~~~

look here how its start wake up at 10 then bath later had breakfast/lunch then get ready to college reach college when in to DKabE find my fren sit with them lec started look at the teacher then shut my eyes close..wake up then shut it again wake up then shut again then ask derek wat time???arrrrr just only 12.30pm omg!Ti sub areee so0 frecking boring!!!!then kinda sit alone din talk to them i just don feels like it...hurm..the after Ti when to canteen had tea break for awhile..then when to block V put my beg at the wat we call it???nvmind then eaccidently bring drinking bottle in to the computer lab a fat guy ask/shout cant bring water in..WTF!so0 don "HISAP ROKOK" in skol compound please...hate dat fat guy~~~~kinda blur to day so0 i guess just got 50% on what bernard show us today...then after class chat with him for awhile when to tbr then back to college took tarc bus to lrt the wait for my mum when for early dinner at 4.30!after dat when home on9 then slepp wake up at 7.30pm...dats how my life is today!sux huh??!!
then i donnoe why lately i hate evryone arr....m'i having metal case here????really i donnoe lately i seems hating a few pple in my life...p/s:i noe dis latest blog is kinda upside down...but i don care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hurm why...ANGER!!!

i donnoe why im typing this just feels like...i guess bcoz im sein-ING then suddenly tink so0 much...i remember last week my mum asked me..
do u wan to continue ur study after diploma???in my mind i was like should i???i guess i should since i wan go overseas n study!dats my biggest dream in my life but my answer yea sure but not staright after diploma maybe find work find experince then see wat working life is wat i like the most design??or photography???then maybe save money for study try not to burden my mum anymore..but i bet most pple look down on me forget bout it hurm.....argghh hate life life suppose to be simple born living then die...is dat so hard???lately i felt dis little ting in my heart a fire anger hates...why pple are so0 MAH FAN!!!!!stop giving trouble to my mum la! please la...go away!!!! since small i seldom be with my mum coz u noe working~~~but now is the time...then sudeenly she need to take care of sumbody else!god!whyy?????!?!?!?!?i just wan my mums care for me just me!me!me!me!!!!!!!!not anyone else..don fan my mum please!just let her have a joy life without anyting to0 fan other then family metters...sum pple are to0 dumb!to0 thick face/skin i guess...then when i told my mum like dat i got scolded wtf!i guess one day i will let my anger out!just wait oneday it will come!

story continue............
then college life whoa its hatic!get less sleep the my skin rosak/worse...hurm lately no really closed with my college mates...everybody seems very down moody...i donnoe why sem2 not so0 enjoy as sem1...i guess everybody noe each other to well...that u don need to comunicate...then im not realy happy with **** seem like evrybody follow wat ever **** said!i wish i have my own car so0 i can have it my own way!sum pple just cant tink for others...pathetic~~~hate hate hate!!!!(not talking bout pple who have cars ok)-who is a passenger- to sum it all i hate the life im living now!



but...
kinda happy coz sumone give me his blog link!wuuuhuuu..
thx ya..
coz giving sumting dat i can fill my time with while im on9-ING yeah yeah~~~

photography!!!!

lolx!happie with my life..but not at the maximum yet..

it getting better! i hope! hehe..i just statrted my new hobby!PHOTOGRAPHY!!!!!!

here sum of the photo dat i have taken...eventhough it kinda really bad..

but hey!im learning here~~~~but give ur honest coment....THX!!!xoxo

i tink dats all dat i can show it here there're more pictures at my friendster!check it out ya"ll!!!

sien~wat happen???GOD~

hurm... currently really got sien with life..now really blur bout my future n current dayly life..its kinda sux..i donnoe y...my mood swing dat fast 1st u c im normal then sudenly whoof!im emo-ING i guess most of my closes fren hate me by now..i just donnoe how to mix around i dunnoe y...please forgive me the way i act i just donnoe y it sudenly hapen to me..its not the usual me.. god in dis situation i really miss my bestest fren i really do miss her miss the way me hang out at skool how in skool she the only who understnad me a fren dats really me black n white front n back...we are bestes bud for ever..but now she away at n9 hurm...who can i be really closed to rite now???parent i guess im ok by since small my life is just outsiders closed to pple such as frens... i don noe y!!!!!!!

wat hapen???

hurm...i hate wednesday!sux...class from 8am to 7pm wtf!its very tiring day...well at 1st the day goes well but i donnoe y sudenly my mood swing~myb i already sien with my life evryting seem boring to me now...or i just have the big J toward everyting..i just donnoe i hate myself...GOD!

HIM!

today was a good day..had fun with jonathan hehe...play shooting with him..lolx how childish m'i erm wait let me start y im typing dis blog..today i went to the post office with my mum while queing up to pay the bills i saw a face dat look alike sumone i once really cared for...but its history now...1st sight of dat person make me realise how much i really miss him..but i donnoe y???just the memories just pop back again and again lately...there were sweet memories bout it..i miss the way how he comfort me during the sad days while im in plkn..but there were sad stories bout it to0..how he change his character bits by bits i keep on staring at the guy how i wish to0 see him again..but i guess dat wouldnt happen..all his promise are fake promises..should i contact him again???or should i just let it be the way it is now..???arghh wish i colud see him once more not to do anyting just to see how he is now...-prays-

did i change???

hurm..."did i change" i donnoe y just out of sudden dis question just BANG into my brain..
i donnoe...mybe my best bud ask me..mybe im less talkative(is dat rite) lately...seriously i don noe why???mybe just donnoe wat to talk n who to talk to0...as u guys noe my college mostly is chinese out of 100% the chinese population is about 90% so0 mostly pple comunicate using mandrin its kinda hard for me...with noe chinese language base it really difficult for me i admit since i entered college i can understand a lil bit of mandrin but its hard for me my brain cant really interprate dat fast so0 might as well i just keep quite..hurm..quite-ness is not the usual me..just make it simple im a talkative girl with the pple i close to0 but i felt dat lately i don really have the person i closess to0..not a single person really understand it seems that everyone at college have their own partners i mean not dat couple partner just a fren a pal a pair dat really understand u...i use to have dat pair..but lately it seem to fade away...well i might as well be alone i been alone al my life 2years of college life wouldnt harm me..I HOPE