woke up at 11.30am to bad im still exhausted but just couldnt fall a sleep back.
exhausted from 40HOURS of being AWAKE~
but is ok i had great fun with friends the last 12 hours..
but even with happie feeling around smile everywhere
couldnt stop my step to think the sadness emotion in me
sometimes i felt everything cant be force im big enuff to understand this
but i couldnt accept it =( for the time being~
maybe this what we call faith~
but im happie i have my bestest buddies around jeffrey and derek =D
always here to cheer me up,helping me to hold myself up , shared sadness all around just being there for me! i love you guys sososo MUCH!
all i have to do now is being TOUGH!!!
full force on everything till i have no room to BREATH!

ciaoz! to the gym so0n~ =D

my eyes lo0k so tired skin lo0k so pale~
causes of din sleep for the whole nite could consider been awake 24hours~
i just couldnt sleep when im down :'(
i just wish i could let it all out...
just i couldnt explain it in literary or communication~
i felt the way is in me is way to deep~
iam hoping to have fun later goin out with derek and hes parent to watch movie...
[thx auntie and uncle for letting me come along]
hoping nothing happens to me later...
*movie at pavilion
* rush back to grandma house
*than rush back to wangsa
*** with my condition now haix.. JUST HOPING NOTHING HAPPENS ALONG THE WAY~

felt so DOWN and MOODY...
felt wanna cry but..
haix but theres no tears..
i keep myself busy~ BUSY the whole day...
but it still here...
if i have a choice i would just get out from here
willing to leave everything behind...
leaving all the sadness that have been trap forever in me..
just wishing u don care for me nomore..
:'(

had a gud nite sleep last nite thx to "the cough syrup"

damn that thing seriously help alot..!!!

just hoping i don get addicted after i get well so0n...

besides i seriously cant wait for the new sem wanna make my life bz..

just planning to move forward doesnt want to hold myself back...

wishing to be happie the way i use to be...

felt sumtimes theres no use of keeping it nomore..

just making my brain cracking on useless things..


x true to your heart - 98 degree...x

effing urself~

i donnoe why pple keep on bothering on how i lead my life?
hate people with double image well... atleast now i noe the truth
i donnoe why people think they are so effing perfect!
hey snap it! you grow up with diffrent kind of background so does me..
talking and labeling me like you noe me so0 blo0dy well!
i hate it! i hate it! I HATE IT!
stop being so pathetic!
i make my mind up..
there nomore giving face or respect to YOU!


BUG off~

I DIN SLEEP LAST NITE!!!!
and i when to gym in the morning.. ==(nvr go to gym in the morning)
i felt like i almost drop from RPM bike coz im blo0dy hell out of suden sleepy... ==
and i din felt connected with the gym to today i feel odd~
i think i noe the reason why...
haix...

is been like 3 days barely had deep sleep.. suffer~
i close my eyes yet i could still feel the motion around..
my eyes are close but my brain din..
i would get up in the middle of the nite after my 30 min- 1 hour "so called sleep"
sitting on the bed lo0king around and think..
what the hell does my brain need to tink in the middle of the nite!
can u just blo0dy shut down for like 6 hours at least not 30min or 1 hours is suffering!
i donnoe why i cant sleep..
i went out the whole day
din had any afterno0n nap!
and yet yesterday i did BODY pump RPM STEP and body sculpt! yet i cant sleep..
i slept at 4AM i woke up at 4.30 AM than turn around till 8 am.. finally my eyes feel wanna shut down felt slightly sleepy the blo0dy hell banging nextdo0r! end my sleepy moment got up..
do thing slowly.. bath than wait for mummy to get herself ready than out to KLCC
was so bloody sleepy while driving wish to doze off~ just wait the moment to go back home n sleep crap! i reach home at 8PM and im not sleepy no more till now =(
== im dome..



++++++ heart felt empty without you~=(

tired tired and tired but i aint sleepy..
is totally suffer..
=(
how could u do body pump RPM step and sculpt a.k.a bo0tcamp..
yet u feel tired but u are not sleepy~
argghh~~~
i seriously got sleeping problem... help!






i cant take my eyes off you.. XD

Happie CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! my peeps..
may the year of roaring tiger will be a go0d year for US! XD

the 1st day is over~
well i had great time thou~
everyone here this year..
not like past few years the family lacking of somebody~
to0k family photo today...
well yet still lacking of sumone
my eldest uncle... ==[went back home to sleep~ grandma hse no electricity]
grrr~~~
nvm nvm... past is past~
waiting my mo0d to come and get my hand on editing...
had few ideas bout the editing
and doin sum photo framing~
but yet the mo0d still not here~
and out of suden i have no mo0d at all...
chill is ntg bout the pic.. sumting personal..
haix..
felt sumtimes certain things kinda hard to understand~
well i donnoe is confusing wish certain thing can be simple as ABC 123
but no it wont...
i wish i could be more brave,confident...
yeayea pple say im a daredevil im not scare of getting hurt? i donnoe
dats what my bro n frens say bout me... it seems i don scare of death~
i don tink twice on certain tings, i wish i could be daredevil in this c2ation~ =(

be tough be tough life is bout learning...



**start from now just try to make the best out of everything**
*** just be the way i like to be is my life ****

-the end-

Wo0t~
goin out every single day~
money out everyday
sobs..
goin out from last saturday till next tuesday...
fully bo0ked aiks pretty tired of it~

6feb(saturday) : went to the garden
7feb(sunday): went to gym and after that to KLCC
8feb(monday) : had lunch + movie with bro at pavilion than gym at 7pm =)
9feb(tuesday) : lunch with a fren and gym from 3pm to 830pm
10feb(wednesday): lunch ,shop and movie with bro (mid valley and garden)
11feb(thursday): lunch with ah fei and pasar malam with derek
12feb(friday): cousin wedding
13feb(saturday): cousin wedding
14feb(sunday): CNY!!!!!
15feb(monday): visiting to cousin house
16feb(tuesday): GYM WHOLE DAY!!!! who fault????? blame it on CNY lolx... i bet i stuff myself to much XD


there!im fully bo0ked~ wo0t~

i had fun last outing with my bro lolx.. all those yellow joke poking him around...
i said it truely it was fun =) nice having u bro.. hugz... =)

updated yet again~

what up? normal...
sucks thou~

1 sentance "lo0se slip and gone"
things are getting twisted up~ haix...

peeps peeeps PeeeeeEEEePss!!!!
im back.. currently on holiday for 3weeks will be back for college on 22feb2010
ntg much basically that happen during holiday only does normal routine~
* gym
* hang outs
- movies with buddies
- photoshooting
- shopping with vyn
- 8 feb movie with my brother ( hes paying im driving ) darn you~ XD
* grow mushroom at home (FAT MOU-ing!)
* read novels(finish 2 novel in 1week)LURLENE McDANIEL never fail make me cry while reading...
* started back my photography that i once left behind about a year ago~
-check out my facebook for the photo-

Thats about it i guess...
bored thou~


felt like the fren im with lately seems like matured...
i wouldnt say it is bad but im kinda liking it...
i donnoe why~
dont even think why lolx..