Last tuesday had a convo with mummy about death.
The convo started up as the main page news about the tragedy at the cemaron highland that killed 22 people? mummy said now everywhere is so dangerous... mummy turn on silent mode when i talked...
i told her... is faithed if god faith you to die that way either way you just have to go.
you wouldnt know what god had actually plan for you. Even if you are lucky could avoid that horrible tragedy soon later maybe not now or later death will eventually come and find you. You even can die out suden in your on house. If you are actually trying to stay safe.
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Lately wasnt feeling myself... what i just feel just something that is hard to describe by words. Even im feeling it but still is hard for me to explain it is suffered. acting like nothing happen infront of people but deep inside i feel like train wreck. but im still greatful i got my brother who actually a person where there NO secrets. i could tell him from A-Z he told me you can cry just cry... let everything out... he know what im actually in right now... GOr thx for hang in there for me... i just cant stop crying lately... im sorry for being weak. :(

a strong mind set is a KEY for an individual to get thru something tough.
life never be easy for ANY individual NO matter you are from MARS or VENUS.
life is hard currently... studies and focusing on instructors things.
there will be someone or somebody will eventually drag or pulling you down.
u can cry u can be sad about it.
but just remember after the "meltdown".
think straight giving up is aint a solution
best solution is believe in yourself you can do what PEOPLE think you cant.
try your best and prove it to yourself YOU are way better than what others said about YOU.
BEST of it! make them EAT their OWN words back! revenge is not about violance.
Revence is about proofing they are wrong! satisfaction to the MAX!