Sumting i did =D

WE are D4!!!!

and will always be! XD

sumting i did last nite...

i noe is abit balia~

but its mem0ry to0 keep =)

THANK YOU AGAIN OH SHENG JEE! XD

alil bit better then just now =) hurray~~~

i wish alot tings now but.....

currently in a mo0d where i felt...

bored just im being human with no feeling~~

even watched movie i felt like i sitting there where my mind stll working but its not me...

i felt ntg even if i laugh i din laugh with a heart just like a laugh with no feeling

hard to explain~~~

haiz...

all i noe lately i just wish! i have the freedom wat my frens have

im 19teen now..

i have all but only dis i don have is freedom...

i cant go out late find my fren...

i cant have fun without rushing to go back home~

i cant go anywhere far~~~

why i cant have dis at my age???

is it the matter of trust???worry or care???

i just donnoe i just couldnt understand...

i felt at my age my fren travel alot see the world learned lot of tings..

but me i'm clueless bout the outside world...

i really felt....

i donnoe wat i feel now...

i really wish to go travel...

follow my fren here and there

enjoy wat i have now..

even just now dinner with fren i felt im not one of them...

i really wish to follow them but i noe i cant~~~

even if i go out i need go out secretly... or lie where i go...

i wish i could tell the truth i don like to lie but the c2ation force me to do..

if not~

by the time im back alot questions will be sho0ting at me to answer

where u go..

why u wanna go??

with who..

why back late...

is dis called life???

im really tired of dis nonsense...

i wish "people" could understand me...

i tink im NOT bad

i just wish i could hang out late chat with fren

doesnt have to rush back when im out

coz i noe myself

i don DO clubing

i don DO smocking

i don DO drinking

ALL I NOE IS IM TIRED OF DIS~~~

24/08/09

well today i passup all my assignments

finally i can say im free for now...

alot tings happen today i just donnoe how wan describe it...

i just noe dat after i drive out from college main gate

my tears coming out like waterfall..yes! i cried with no reason out of suden the innerself feeling just felt sumting bad will happen...

finally found out my feeling is a reality...

i donnoe wat i should feel mad,worry haiz i just donnoe wat i feel dat time O.o

myb 1 of my fren say is true(...... is the only person affect my life the most)

i guess too care n concern on dat particular person so0 much...

haiz...

things happen and is already happen

still u need continue living~

so0 be happie dear =)

i trust u can be ok =)

**fren don need say thx n sorry dats wat frens are to0 understand n be with u when u need US!


-teAmo fren =)
**hughugSSS and kissessssSS**
XOXOXO

ok for now???

The last post was:

Wat feel just now totally down donnoe wat happen to me...

sudenly anger ranging out again while lo0king for sumting

then control my hot temper finally i end up emo-ing~~~

but i pretty ok now thx again to jeff... ==

now i noe where to run next time i "feel"wakaka...

baibai goin to bed so0n it is 7.am now ==

ALL I WANNA SAY ISSSSSSSSssss!!!!!!!!
i not happie
not happie
not happie not hapiiiiiEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mo0dless and THANK YOU!

mo0dless dats all can sum up my life...

lately my mo0d change faster n rapidly then pendulum~

i donnoe wat happen to me...

i just wish to be with pple who really understand me~

i don wish to communicate to pple that i are'nt close enuff..

if not i felt anger ranging to be fire out..

all i can say i don feel the way i'm last time...

sumtimes i only wish to communicate only to dat particular person don wish to face anybody ELSE...

seriously wat happen???to me???

i felt nobody understand me anymore wat i get is "beh song" words out from pple dat occur becuz of my current c2ation...

i wish i could shout it out

i wish i could say it out

i wish i could cry it out

i wish i could....

all are just wishes...

but im guess im lucky atleast i have two pple dat i can really open up to0...

my deardear vyn n jeffrey thank you for understanding me...

vyn thank you for listening to me be there when i need u~

jeffrey i wonder how u can read my mind??? u seems noe everything dat i tink even i din speak it out u seems to noe everything???how cum??? but thx for lending me ur ears... even i noe u currently have problem all i can say is thank you!~

**** really sorry to pple i din communicate or i just ignore i noe i ignore most of them i just not in the stage whre i can be the way i use to be...

all i can say i'm really sorry~

typoNIGHTMARElianism+jacPOphobia~

haiz tired exhausted dats all i can say~~~
been doin typo poster for 10hours
from 2-6pm then 10pm-3am
tomoro will be another typo day~~~

Dream~

so here the thing~ last nite i slept for like wat 4 hours then wake up for colege~
late for lec but still i make it the lecture started late~
2 hours of lec but i hardly put my mind on it~~~
even my mind can barely keep awake~
even fetching derek,jeff,chui and tengteng i barely keep focus~~~
my eyes was like cry-ing for mercy to sleep~~
haiz...
after lecture went to print~
at tbr then course rep told us dat class cancel i was like WUUHOOOO!!!!!! can go back sleep~~
but b4 dat need to hand in typo assigement~~~
then buy thing for typo last assigment...
to buy the material another headache~~~
the size and quantity damn~~
i don feel wanna mention here~~
finally back to tbr buy ting~~~==
i bought the minor ting already make me 100% broke!!! not a single cent inside my purse==
so0 after back home..
bath then chat with dear vyn for awhile then nap~~
here the WEIRDEST ting i dream about...

at 1st it was like normal in my dream i dream i was sleeping where sudenly i open my eyes.......

i saw jeffrey was at my ro0m sitting beside my bed smiling at me~~

i felt i almost shout asking him wat the.... u doin in my ro0m but yet im to tired to do so0 wakakaka.... told him bout dis and he laugh at me...==

he ask me with hes famous sentence "u ok or not??"

wakaka... was funny dream yet was so0 weird wat the hack sudenly he cum to my hse and in my ro0m~~==

btw u noe y dis paragraph is in purple??????? becuz he like purple~~ i tink...

oh yea btw later he say he will visit me again in my dream wearing BIKINI^^

wakaka... till here then baibai la!!~~~~

thank you my dear vyn!

today my deadear vyn help me edit dis 2 pic..
hehe i so0 like it man^^
thx dear... =)

jeffrey like the second picture coz hes in it ==

and he don like the 1st pic becuz he not in it ==

hes weird~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

wakakaka....

nitenite dat the update =)

wat i feel now~~~

wat i feel now is dat im damn sleepy~~~
my eyes barely open for few hours~
even i sit for few minutes i feel like sliding down sumwhere n doze off~~~
haiz..
wat hapening to me~~~
weekend im extremely tired~~
weekdays im extremely bz~~
haiz...

special message to my fren...
trust urself if u tink its rite
i noe u are a guy with ur own opinion n mindset...
just remember even nobody support u..
u still have us~
even theres no "us"
u still have me =)
even i not here...
u need remember u still have ur family =)
still remember u told me b4??
ur family always put u first!
just take care urself my fren... =)