i wish alot tings now but.....

currently in a mo0d where i felt...

bored just im being human with no feeling~~

even watched movie i felt like i sitting there where my mind stll working but its not me...

i felt ntg even if i laugh i din laugh with a heart just like a laugh with no feeling

hard to explain~~~

haiz...

all i noe lately i just wish! i have the freedom wat my frens have

im 19teen now..

i have all but only dis i don have is freedom...

i cant go out late find my fren...

i cant have fun without rushing to go back home~

i cant go anywhere far~~~

why i cant have dis at my age???

is it the matter of trust???worry or care???

i just donnoe i just couldnt understand...

i felt at my age my fren travel alot see the world learned lot of tings..

but me i'm clueless bout the outside world...

i really felt....

i donnoe wat i feel now...

i really wish to go travel...

follow my fren here and there

enjoy wat i have now..

even just now dinner with fren i felt im not one of them...

i really wish to follow them but i noe i cant~~~

even if i go out i need go out secretly... or lie where i go...

i wish i could tell the truth i don like to lie but the c2ation force me to do..

if not~

by the time im back alot questions will be sho0ting at me to answer

where u go..

why u wanna go??

with who..

why back late...

is dis called life???

im really tired of dis nonsense...

i wish "people" could understand me...

i tink im NOT bad

i just wish i could hang out late chat with fren

doesnt have to rush back when im out

coz i noe myself

i don DO clubing

i don DO smocking

i don DO drinking

ALL I NOE IS IM TIRED OF DIS~~~