1.50am 27/10/09

Currentmo0d: confuse as usual~

haiz..

im back...

i maybe a person dat is not gud playing with words...

sumtimes hard for me to describe my inner feeling..

only me myself and i noe the script to the true story...

sumtimes i felt no use of telling pple..

all i get is confusing emotion it hard for me...

sumtimes i don really get it...

for u to see it as the audiences is diffrents

to tell the truth seriously if u ask me wat happening now blo0dy hell i reallly donnoe wats happening NOW!

i wish i could be the audiences instead of the players...

once its finish pple just walk out and forget...

sometimes i wondering why...

could i just speck out like the players in Broadway~

speck out loud and strong! be dare to face on the climax...

at the end of the show instead..

hiding their self because of the stage fright..

hurm..

sumtimes story are hard to understand..

it takes time...

thank you...

26/10/09

4.51Am

current mo0d: still confius~

donnoe wat should say

doesnt noe wat need to be say.

donnoe wat is hapenning

doesnt noe wats goin to happen

i wish to type alot here but...

felt theres a wall forbidden from doin dat

i noe pple misunderstood my meaning wat i say they tink the other way round..

but im not blaming anyone... i wish if anyone clueless bout wat happening please don conclud ur synopsis on me for once just ask if i willing to tell u...

all i can say thx to GOD i have pple that i noe really care me my bro george,dear vyn and dear miky( i miss ya dude i really do) and SKF

these pple i really wanna say thx for being there for me listen to my boring story... yet never give up on me... <3

recently i felt like i'm unwanted person...

really felt that.. i donnoe whether im being soso sensetive lately.. i just donnoe..

im a nobody i guess..

i really don wish any bad tings to happen...

if i did anything wrong im sorry~ <3

haiz just talk to a new fren felt slightly better...

thx...

i like one of hes sentence even it cumout of no where from the convo:

he ask me u noe why god create gaps in between our finger..

like usual i say the dumest answer for us easy to hold n move i guess..

than he laugh lolx yeayea i noe stupid answer rite??? lolx but than he can up with the most sweetest answer... i really like it....

"why do god create gaps in between our fingers??
it's because some day sme1 whom u'll fated with, his hand will fits those gaps and hold ur hand tight till the end..and tat person would make u happy"

E.N.D <3

25/10/09 4.45 am just woke up from nap XD my hand now damn uncomfortable ~ itchy =( well today.. ntg much happen college like normal

din get anything inside my head thou XD well except color study ,marketing = 0% XD

TODAY!!! i got my HIPPO dolldoll =)

thx tengteng alice AND rekrek =)

cutecute lil hippo XD <3

current mood: normal XD

23/10/09 4am wat im doin now??? blogging~
goin out early later round 10 haiz...
i noe the answer now i guess~ even if not clearly but i guess i get it now..
starting to take does baby step backwards... [redraw myself]
be tough teera be tough...



current moody: confius!

3.30Am ---- 22/10/09

Current mood: slightly mo0dy~

the day(21/10) din go well~
donnoe why just frequently stare into blank page~
just unhappie with one ting~ haiz...
M'i to care?
M'i to emotional?
just donnoe how to say~
i really don...


[shouldnt care much bout it anymore it not my life =( ]

don wish that any of this to change unless the changes change into a better c2ation....

4.03A.m---- 18/10/09

had a chat with mama

well i told her what happen to me last sem break...

erm not that hard to tell her everything..

what mama say had facts but mybe at the stage of time i cant get the facts in my brain~

i can say that she got shock what i told her did not expect that cum from me i guess...

i told her bout my studies~~~ well...

couldnt make any decision~~~ should work??? go for ADV or degree???

6month to go...

gonna put it aside for a moment doesnt need dis to bug her now~~~

current mood: nuetral~

16/10/09---1.15a.m

this video speak the truth what has been trap inside for so long...
it really do...
to the people who keep asking...
i hope you guys understand now...
don worry bout me because i will be alright S.O.M.E.D.A.Y





sorry for the emo post recent really not in the good c2ation recently...
sorry...

wish she wouldnt see every happinest infront of her now...

doesnt mean by others people happienest is her own happinest flying away... =(

donnoe where to start...

felt like a ....

donnoe how describe the innerself of me...

what the point of telling pple???

really wondering...

wats the point...

myb im being to emo~~~

***sorry to whom i may or may not in directly say harsh word or might say sumting dat to0 overly serious even i noe u are not mean to*** i really sorry =(

I WISH LIFE COULD BE SIMPLE AS

ABC123

WOULDNT IT BE EASIER???

What had happen???

READERS!!!! im back...! after a few weeks cooling down from emo-ing like Shit~~~

so0 where should i start now???

hurm... should i start it after exam??? yea dats bring us back to Jeffrey burfday^^ hes finally 20! =) lolx...

we celebrated hes b.day at lowyat vege restaurant

the place was great...^^we kinda set a new "eating habits"

eat a cake without cutting it... well it actually better than u cut the cake which at the end you will end up have balance .... keke he told me hes happie~ i take hes word for it^^ kekex... dats goes the end of sem...

Sem break...

raya haiz... didnt actually lo0king forward at all~~~ seriously.. raya 1,2,3 wasssss so00000 bored... ==

ntg much can do~ cant even wake up late~ arghhh...

for the 1st week for Raya my mo0d... so0 damn bad~~~

emo-ing like Shit~ cried every nite for 3-4days.. til the last day of my emo-ing my eyes swollen... but im consider lucky i guess i got my big bro here... bro George thx for being here for me yea... u really the medicine i need dat time u talk facts to me make me noe wat really happening=)**bro i still remember wat i promise u last time yea** at 1st was planning to go ip0h dis sem break to get out from dis mess~~~ but than jeff told me hes fren cuming back from s'pore so0 its 0k i don mind tinking sum other place to go... Think Think think hard.. finally i told my mum "hey can i go to langkawi for break?" i cant believe she say yes!but im glad~ coz...cant say it here only 2 pple noe bout the story behind me n bro.... so0 here

LANGKAWI! i COME!

30/09/09-03/10/09

Langkawi was great i seriously like chenang peaceful the beach the enviroment out of dis mess in my life "was" driving me crazy~ 1st day i got there it was raining heavily not a gud time to go any where since i din noe the road coz my mum n me rent a car RM180 for 4 days? cheap huh?? for a wira?rm50 for 230km? keke i wont describe much here just post a few pictures...

** some of the photos i to0k**

4days 3 nites was fun and end FAST! lolx journey home was long i guess caring 13kg luggage's alone wasnt easy with does public transport but HEY! i aint complaining bout it because it was worth it^^ so0 i am now back to my daily life which im trying hard not to be back the way i felt so0..... working hard on it^^ well for 2 weeks break past fast dis time lolx =) and im happie with it!

NEW SEM

timetable was GUD! earliest class is at 10am!!!! and its only for a day latest is 6pm! can it get better than dat??? lolx... how did my 1 st day of college goes??? well the day b4 tuesday dat means monday jeff me ask me go out shopping with him n rek^^ sure the answer GOGOGO!!!! kekex...

tuesday rolling in we went to times Square BTW f.y.i dis 2 guy shop=buy tings but me.. im a gud girl for dat day din buy anyTHING! wakaka XD the day when well very exhausted == after walking around when back early for ashley bday fetch her at college then went to jj bought her polo T? yeayea^^ than rush fetch emily^^ we went to 4 season restaurant **winter season^^

blo0dy cold la WEI!!!! and the enviroment blueish color make us so0 difficult to read the menu~ felt like sitting in the fish tank wakakak XD we ate chit chat till 9pm everybody so0 tired @@

i hope my lil sis happie with the celebration =)

**HAPPIE BURFDAY ASHLEY**