28december^^

slept at 5 cant sleep coz minor food poisoning..
the 3rd time for dis 2months..
god..
woke up at 1Pm^^
hehe..
done nothing much just upgrade the slide presentation then went out to0 starpark...
lepak-ING at cousin hse..
then go t0 desa sri hartamas..
then back to0 starpark yamcha with cousin at green rose..
back home at 10.30
chat with my baby tawtaw.. create really HOT chat lolx..
btw hes darn cute..^^really miss him... dat basically my day...

the guy with the coat is my baby^^i told u hes darn cute^^lolx...btw he just turn 18 ^^

ps:i not attach to0 him...duh~~~

juseE trandy house!

25 december its CHRISTMAS DAY
wake up at 11.3oa.m
plan to0 shop at the curve but at the end din go..
traffic jam!then decide go to0 my cousin shop(boutique) open ceremony
at jalan kucai lama...
they name it jusee trandy house
JUSEE
ju=JUliana
see=mui SEE
JU+SEE=JUSEE
bought a cloth but i din pay for it my puikor pay for it...(christmas present i should say) thx^^
the cloth cost him RM64
take few pic for them since i bring my DSRL
here are a few photo of the boutique

THANK YOU^^

problem in ME!!!!

2.30A.M-christmas day
MSN with jeff
tinking bout why...........
i created dis blog is to0 express my inner self...
where i can type wat ever i feel and tink...
just to0 say i have dis particular prob in me..
I HATE MYSELF!.. since secondary i guess...
i tink dis word when im alone.. for me im not gud enough not becoz of family background
is me my inner self..
i hate how i look..
i don diserve any gud tings dat happen to0 me..
i hate dis and dat..
i noe dat now im talking nonsence here...
pple who noe me say i look fine the way i am now...
cute adorable..
well dat for me is all crap~
i donnoe why dis happen to me..
it just like mo0d swing...
sumtimes i accept who i am but sum particular moment and time i seriously hate myself!
i donnoe why...
im sad...
just wanna cry...
but it is no use..
becoz i will still hate myself...
i just need a fren a true fren dat will listen the inner part of me...
but i guess it just a dream im losing all my frens now... all being cranky to0 me i just donnoe why...

- a true inner self of -teera_airen-

CHRISTMAS!

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all^^

well nothing much happen..

just hangout with cousin then back home..

Jeff msg me wanna join party at derek hse..

but well i refuse...because

1.no mood

2.lazy

3. TRAFFIC JAM!

4.late back sure kena ngam

5. haiz...

but is ok!theres still new year coming up!!!! merry christmas guys^^

teera_airen^^

mess up my mind!!!!!!

hurm..
since he sms me back...
i felt dat i really hate him i donnoe y...
my bro say hes a jerk..(luv ya bro^^)
i guess it is true...
im to0 dumb...
but luckly im not dumb enough to0 do wat he ask me to do b4...
having s3X with him god for godness sick!
stay pure till marriage la jerk...
maybe im blind coz i like him so0 much..
i just hope he wouldnt remember me anymore...
please let me be alone a life without u..
coz u are not worth it...
u told me b4 u fuck gurl becoz they hurt u..
so0 now i fuck u back coz u hurt me so0 much...
and u mess up my mind!!!

BTW:i tink i like sumone..
i guess~~~ shhh...
is a secret lolx^^

life haiz so0 sien...

im really sien of my life now...
i donnoe y...
lately see alot couple dating here and there couples just poping up like mushroom
felt kinda envy....
but i just have to face the fact that no one theres for me~
i just scared..
rejected everyone dat ask me b4...
i just scared they cant be sincere to me..
just me...
i don like guy who infront of u say sweet tings then behind u just like evil devil..
tons of gf..
is dis call selfish???
i guess..
but.. haiz..
maybe 1 of my prob is i donnoe how to respond to a guy
haiz....
life is sien...
ugly face like mine..
just dream bout!

21/12/08-weird day..

well..
is not actually weird day is kinda suprising day..
is been like 3month out of contact out of sight
then suddenly he msg me today at 6.57 A.M!..
and i donnoe y....
i just wanna 4get him...
i just donwan remember any of hes image in my head anymore...
haiz..
plz just leave far away from my life..
just 4get bout me...
please..

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of meI'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far awayI have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be,
nowGonna let the light,
shine on me
Now I've found,
who I amThere's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

dis lyric may be meaningless to u..
but it mean alot to me..
dis lyric discribe who i am.. trust me its true...

QUieTnesS

is 3.15 A.m now...god...
while doing my assigment..
suddenly i felt so0 lonely it kinda crip me out...
the quietness i just cant stand it..
i just tink..
i tink im the person who cant stand a place dat are so0 quiet...
i need life where hype is there...
music tv..
anything phone...
god cant stand the lonely-ness n the quietness now i guess i do need some one..
maybe sumone special???lolx it kinda funny tink it dat way i guess~
but i guess there noe one out there dat are rite for me...
how do pple accept me if i don really accpet who i am???haiz...
god misery of the lonely-ness n the quietness... i just have to accpet it now..~~~

SUNDAY!

babybaby

when we 1st met i nvr felt sumting so strong...(my ringtone)

mw:teera,u just wake up arr??(11.30)want go out????

teera: huh??go where??i got alot presentation slide show to do leh..

mw:o0 then nvmind lor...

teera:hurm..i can go out but for awhile only..

mw:awhile for how long???

teera: 3-4 hours

mw:3-4 hours ok ad...

teera:where u wan meet????mid arrr???

mw: nola klcc...

teera:o0 ok la..meet u at klcc then..

wake up then take bath...

1pm reach klcc...

meet up with meiwei at pc fair

i hate dat place~~~

but i bought a pendrive..

then get ourself out from there

when to foodcourt momoe wan buy mineral water

walk to teddytales-buy nasty stuff

then went to maxis center activate my 3g and mms

waited there for 1 hour

take few photo

meiwei and me^^ my honey for life^^ ps:im not les~~~

luv ya^^

me and momoe^^

we are frens^^

12dec08

bored-NESS
today as usual college..
reach college 30min after lec started..
after 10min in lec hall cabut when to canteen 2 n club hse...
lepak-ing for awhile then went to bernard class
sein all the time..
but atleast i learn sumting la~~~
2hours later walk to dkabf
oliver show sumting bout comourflage
then 10min group disscusion then my mum called..
told me dad argue with ex-puiso
all nasty words..
im glad im not there but im pity for my mum...
shes sick but have to cope with all dis nonsense
i just feel like slapping dat biatch...
not because of disrespect my dad...
but she making her daughter suffer...
i can sense the misery in dat lil soul of dat child...
yes she cant express wat she feel...
she just a kid..
but y u are so0 dumb n make dis brainless way out???
i been once in dat situastion and i can tell u i don like it...
because im lucky my mum...shes smart!
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back to the main story...
mum fetch me at lrt wangsa..
then went to jj just to put the lil girl mind off the biatch..
treat her sum rides at jj
had dinner
then went back...
since my mum din feeling well..
i drive back home..
but unlucky is heavyrain n "banjir!!!!!god~~~
from 5min journey back home it to0k me 1hour
i hate driving in the rain..~~~
haiz..
basically dats my day...
----the end----

intro

since i sign up for dis blog i don really intro bout myself just basic name and age..
but heres my bio~

NAME: Nur Athirah airen

AGE: 8teen

D.O.B: 12 july 1990

STATUS: single minggle triangle

BRO/SIS: none-adopt alot

CRUSH: do have^^ guess who^^

HOBBY: photography,on9,chatting

SICKNESS: asthma-difficulties in breathing since small but now i guess is long gone~,allergies still have it tilll now

LIKES:novel,flyingfox,secret recipe,caremel,phone,sms-ing,hang out-yc,shopping,drama,music,sing k~

LOVES: family mum n dad,grandma-popo-uncle n aunts,cousins,nephew n niece,AND frens!!!

AIM IN LIFE: go overseas,a successful photographer and have tons of money^^

IDEAL GUY:doesnt have to be god damn good looking i will settle for a cute boy don really fancy handsome guy

BASIC FACTS: im to0 bad for anyone, so i don deserve anyone in my love life coz well just accept dat im ugly n fat...~(sumting happen b4 wanna noe just ask)

CURRENTLY: saving money to buy wide angle lens that cost Rm1000++ and 4 gb sd card

who0a!

i cant believe is almost end of semester
all the hustle going on in mylife... and is almost the end of the sem and year???
gosh how fast time past??? and next year im going be a year older???
god~~~time fast when is almost end of the year..is just like 1 a week = a day???
now is already end of week 10 of college.. next 3 weeks gonna have 2 presentation..
then exam???wat the.... and no study week!!!!!walao~~~
but still tons of work to be done...
btw theres nothing much happening in my life rite now less sleep and tension daily life..

wat about it???

i just have to type dis blog...
is 3.50pm now skip classes
my life currently is so0 up side down...
pressure tension strees hate!
i just cant stand it anymore...
he just wont listen to any of ur explaination..
y lec are all like dat..????????
not everyone tell lie if they are sincerly doing ur work..
hey atleast im trying to finish ur work not dat i doin anything else..
i still have other sub to0 tink im still human...
i have 13 drawing 2 sketchbo0k counted pages front n back =120 1 page =2 human figure
120x2=240 human figure..
design i got 2 proposal 1 group assigment
photography 4 pair work 1 group assigment
bm lanjutan 1 group assigment 1 presentation
dis work take time i still need a life here..
im not just comitet to only 1 assignMent
im so0 damn fuck up with my life now...
y he is forcing use to the max????

damn fuck up with her!!!idiot biatch!!!

i hate her hate her...
she is like devil in disguise...
wat kind of mother she is???
depan ckp lain belakang ckp lain...
hey u biatch pay my money back!!!
u owe me !!!!a babysitter money...
i feeling like slapping u !arrgghh so0 damn fuck -up with u...
im lucky my mum is here is not im sure gonna baang dat lady car..
wat park infront of my hse????hey old lady..
ur car is just pinjam only la..
don tink u are so0 yeng ad...
btw...try to be matured then me plz!!!!!!!!! ur like 31??? and im like wat 18???? for godness sick.. plz...
anddddd don act very yeng infront of me or my family~
a big thank you~~~~

january-december and story of family^^ and friends!

a story of a girl...
story start at the age of 18 year 2008
january
-new year!!!
-working
(nothing much happen)
febuary
-cny
-working
(basic daily life)
march
-stop working -preparing for plkn
18march---kisana beach resort pantai tok bali kelantan
heres where the story start

here where wat do u feel if family wasnt rite beside u~

im just like an alien came been send the earth all seem different

im scared i really scared i just dont wanna talk i wan go home just home where mom nagging me and dad wat he do best that is -nothing-

now wat io have is just my phone dat make me feel closer to my family

is been 3days now i still haven talk just answer pple ques between 3 days i just make 1 fren an indian fren she the only pple i have now...

she still in my heart the only pple understand me now-plkn-

is been 2 weeks now started few activies by then make few fren ageos nas n carmen^^

but i still not dat happie just cant wait till my parent come n visit me...home cook food rite from gombak^^-plkn food sux-

finnally the day is here at 10 yeah!got call from my mum

mum:ayang we reach ad come out k

jumping man^^

chitchat with mum and dad god~now i can feel how much my mum n dad luv me..

time fly suddenly clock strick 4 mum n dad have to go home feel of sadness just feels up in my soul

april

-normal stuff wat plkn pple do...

heres where i start to make fren with my kelantan fren

my dome mates emmie nie nani ida meza fatin..

here where i start to noe who is ur real/true frens are...

then plkn mates a kelantan guy aepi his cool the told me im the only girl he close to in plkn...

i really comunicate alot with him... time past fast really fast

i make frens with teacher cikgu madnoor cikgu manaf cikgu ika cikgu sitinoor

but dis month of april is kinda of bad luck sick when to medic quit alot of time alergies..

they done nothing just give me cream dat done nothing or make change to it

may

-counting my day to go home!!!!!!

8days more...

start to feel im don want go home early...

i wan to0 spend the time i have left we my fren

but haiz i tink i have the bad luck with me just week before im going home damn went to hospital twice and got an injection at the butt!shit~

darn alergies..

the was finally here i cry living my fren behind

i noe dis is the last time we going to see each other...heart break im not going to see u guys anymore aepi,emmie(my mummy),nie,nani,meza,fatin,ida

take care...

home sweet home

-started a new chap of my life-college-

june

-started to0 noe new pple again

yikcheng,joyee,peiwen,john,rek,jeff,lynn,mic,swei,c.hui,c.seng,tmaiseah,ongs.wei

july

-normall college stuff

12july my b.day nothing much happen boring b.day

august

forgot wat happen

september

-puasa

-exam

-jeff b.day make a card for him

-mum b.day

din actually buy her anyting just buy a simple ting dat she can use daily

october

-sem break

-raya(sux except the money^^)

-start college again

-ares b.day

november

nothing much stress month++emo month

-mic b.day

-mid term

-alot family problem

december

-updating soon-

gosh how time fly now is already end of the year

damn~~~~

argghh to0 many assignment!!!
drawing i still have 4 drawing 1 30pages sketchbook and 1 3vp drawing fuck shit!++++
other subject design 1 need to draw 9 visual drawing~cant even go for the college open day shit!!!!!!! due date is on next wed~i need a life la~~~~~

view my fs to0 see random photography!thx~

03DEC08

quit a relaxing day today...^^
go coll the come back for awhile take nap^^
god~~~never imagine wednesday can be so0 relax^^
then after dat went to0000 coll library...got shock saw spongERIC there hahax.. at 1st don really "perasan"him.. hehe sorry spongERIC^^ do all the bla bla bla bla...clock strike 3!went to block v203 bla bla bla bla again then go for photography class bla bla bla bout presentation then go home^^ damn relex hahax..
till here now its 3.30 A.M!!!! need to sleep^^

yeah yeah yeah~

kinda happie today~!!!^^ lolx pass my tamadun exam kinda shock i pass hahax....
at 1st for damn sure fail lor~then waa...34/50???wat the crap~~~hahax
higher then my 1st test leh~yeahyeah then photography ok la donnoe the mark/review yet but hope get gud marks lor coz most the ques i noe~ hahax...
now my blog the text need put colour lor coz spongERIC say very boring~need be like his blog very COlourful and alot pic^^yeahyeahyeahyeah~~~~

lolx~^^