1.50am 27/10/09

Currentmo0d: confuse as usual~

haiz..

im back...

i maybe a person dat is not gud playing with words...

sumtimes hard for me to describe my inner feeling..

only me myself and i noe the script to the true story...

sumtimes i felt no use of telling pple..

all i get is confusing emotion it hard for me...

sumtimes i don really get it...

for u to see it as the audiences is diffrents

to tell the truth seriously if u ask me wat happening now blo0dy hell i reallly donnoe wats happening NOW!

i wish i could be the audiences instead of the players...

once its finish pple just walk out and forget...

sometimes i wondering why...

could i just speck out like the players in Broadway~

speck out loud and strong! be dare to face on the climax...

at the end of the show instead..

hiding their self because of the stage fright..

hurm..

sumtimes story are hard to understand..

it takes time...

thank you...

26/10/09

4.51Am

current mo0d: still confius~

donnoe wat should say

doesnt noe wat need to be say.

donnoe wat is hapenning

doesnt noe wats goin to happen

i wish to type alot here but...

felt theres a wall forbidden from doin dat

i noe pple misunderstood my meaning wat i say they tink the other way round..

but im not blaming anyone... i wish if anyone clueless bout wat happening please don conclud ur synopsis on me for once just ask if i willing to tell u...

all i can say thx to GOD i have pple that i noe really care me my bro george,dear vyn and dear miky( i miss ya dude i really do) and SKF

these pple i really wanna say thx for being there for me listen to my boring story... yet never give up on me... <3

recently i felt like i'm unwanted person...

really felt that.. i donnoe whether im being soso sensetive lately.. i just donnoe..

im a nobody i guess..

i really don wish any bad tings to happen...

if i did anything wrong im sorry~ <3

haiz just talk to a new fren felt slightly better...

thx...

i like one of hes sentence even it cumout of no where from the convo:

he ask me u noe why god create gaps in between our finger..

like usual i say the dumest answer for us easy to hold n move i guess..

than he laugh lolx yeayea i noe stupid answer rite??? lolx but than he can up with the most sweetest answer... i really like it....

"why do god create gaps in between our fingers??
it's because some day sme1 whom u'll fated with, his hand will fits those gaps and hold ur hand tight till the end..and tat person would make u happy"

E.N.D <3

25/10/09 4.45 am just woke up from nap XD my hand now damn uncomfortable ~ itchy =( well today.. ntg much happen college like normal

din get anything inside my head thou XD well except color study ,marketing = 0% XD

TODAY!!! i got my HIPPO dolldoll =)

thx tengteng alice AND rekrek =)

cutecute lil hippo XD <3

current mood: normal XD

23/10/09 4am wat im doin now??? blogging~
goin out early later round 10 haiz...
i noe the answer now i guess~ even if not clearly but i guess i get it now..
starting to take does baby step backwards... [redraw myself]
be tough teera be tough...



current moody: confius!

3.30Am ---- 22/10/09

Current mood: slightly mo0dy~

the day(21/10) din go well~
donnoe why just frequently stare into blank page~
just unhappie with one ting~ haiz...
M'i to care?
M'i to emotional?
just donnoe how to say~
i really don...


[shouldnt care much bout it anymore it not my life =( ]

don wish that any of this to change unless the changes change into a better c2ation....

4.03A.m---- 18/10/09

had a chat with mama

well i told her what happen to me last sem break...

erm not that hard to tell her everything..

what mama say had facts but mybe at the stage of time i cant get the facts in my brain~

i can say that she got shock what i told her did not expect that cum from me i guess...

i told her bout my studies~~~ well...

couldnt make any decision~~~ should work??? go for ADV or degree???

6month to go...

gonna put it aside for a moment doesnt need dis to bug her now~~~

current mood: nuetral~

16/10/09---1.15a.m

this video speak the truth what has been trap inside for so long...
it really do...
to the people who keep asking...
i hope you guys understand now...
don worry bout me because i will be alright S.O.M.E.D.A.Y





sorry for the emo post recent really not in the good c2ation recently...
sorry...

wish she wouldnt see every happinest infront of her now...

doesnt mean by others people happienest is her own happinest flying away... =(

donnoe where to start...

felt like a ....

donnoe how describe the innerself of me...

what the point of telling pple???

really wondering...

wats the point...

myb im being to emo~~~

***sorry to whom i may or may not in directly say harsh word or might say sumting dat to0 overly serious even i noe u are not mean to*** i really sorry =(

I WISH LIFE COULD BE SIMPLE AS

ABC123

WOULDNT IT BE EASIER???