HOw could a person have two innerself that have its own pro n cons that lead to 1 problem???
it's been hard~~~ not to have gust to face it!
just make a Quote for herself:

"battling with 2 innerself MAYBE hard~~~ like one have said.. face it or u will NEVER learn...but when is the time i gonna get dat GUST to againt all this???[ONLY TIME WILL TELL]"

hoping dis will make her stand strong~ XfingercrossX

how is like to0 be cry-ing for the past few nites???

NOT IN THE MOOD TO UPDATE ANY POST RIGHT NOW

14SEPT2009

will be updating a big post SOON! =)

MONDAY

01.41 A.m

just gonna skip the day before~(saturday) event which causing me major brain freeze @@

gonna fast forward to yesterday SUNDAY ^^

ntg much happen on sunday slept at 9Am till 1pm

after dat send car to fix back the alarm~

back home and watch drama...

was waiting for OH SHENG JEE to wake up....

promise me dinner with me~~~

but....

dis oh sheng jee veri beri geng

7.30am slept til 7.30pm @@

but yet we still go for dinner~~~

went at 9 had dinner at sri rampai station1

Jeffrey ordered

-egg soup yeemee

add on

-Yeemee = 2 yeemee for dinner @@

-egg cheese sandwish@@ + soya

dis guy really can eat!!!!!

wakaka XD

Teera(me)

-chicken soup

-orange juice (large)

-coslaw salad which i share with jeffrey~~~

talk alot of crap~~~

we started talking from 9pm to 11pm non stop~~~ walao ==

dis week gonna be a boring week my"teman" go back hometown 6days@@ O.M.G!!!

so0 tonite gonna stay up late kekex... MSN-ing all the way^^

then after dinner+supper i went back home then went out again yc reach home at 12am~

and now im here bloging~~~

till here now baibai la~~~

4thSept2009

02.18A.m

hurm...

wat im doin now???

facebook-ing

drama-ing~~

lately tink alot of tings...

sumtimes wondering why???

dis n dat...

but..

i guess i will let tings be the way it wanna be...

for now...

A.N.D

i donnoe y...

lately very Quiet don like to respond to pple~~~

just

oh,yea,no, u like,watever...

i would rather type then talk...

A.N.D

sorry if the way i react to sum pple a lil bit sensetive lately i donnoe why...

don worry i noe its not me~

just maybe i need time

space away from where i am now...

i wish i can do it dis coming holiday...

another wish

haiz...

_the end_

Sumting i did =D

WE are D4!!!!

and will always be! XD

sumting i did last nite...

i noe is abit balia~

but its mem0ry to0 keep =)

THANK YOU AGAIN OH SHENG JEE! XD

alil bit better then just now =) hurray~~~

i wish alot tings now but.....

currently in a mo0d where i felt...

bored just im being human with no feeling~~

even watched movie i felt like i sitting there where my mind stll working but its not me...

i felt ntg even if i laugh i din laugh with a heart just like a laugh with no feeling

hard to explain~~~

haiz...

all i noe lately i just wish! i have the freedom wat my frens have

im 19teen now..

i have all but only dis i don have is freedom...

i cant go out late find my fren...

i cant have fun without rushing to go back home~

i cant go anywhere far~~~

why i cant have dis at my age???

is it the matter of trust???worry or care???

i just donnoe i just couldnt understand...

i felt at my age my fren travel alot see the world learned lot of tings..

but me i'm clueless bout the outside world...

i really felt....

i donnoe wat i feel now...

i really wish to go travel...

follow my fren here and there

enjoy wat i have now..

even just now dinner with fren i felt im not one of them...

i really wish to follow them but i noe i cant~~~

even if i go out i need go out secretly... or lie where i go...

i wish i could tell the truth i don like to lie but the c2ation force me to do..

if not~

by the time im back alot questions will be sho0ting at me to answer

where u go..

why u wanna go??

with who..

why back late...

is dis called life???

im really tired of dis nonsense...

i wish "people" could understand me...

i tink im NOT bad

i just wish i could hang out late chat with fren

doesnt have to rush back when im out

coz i noe myself

i don DO clubing

i don DO smocking

i don DO drinking

ALL I NOE IS IM TIRED OF DIS~~~

24/08/09

well today i passup all my assignments

finally i can say im free for now...

alot tings happen today i just donnoe how wan describe it...

i just noe dat after i drive out from college main gate

my tears coming out like waterfall..yes! i cried with no reason out of suden the innerself feeling just felt sumting bad will happen...

finally found out my feeling is a reality...

i donnoe wat i should feel mad,worry haiz i just donnoe wat i feel dat time O.o

myb 1 of my fren say is true(...... is the only person affect my life the most)

i guess too care n concern on dat particular person so0 much...

haiz...

things happen and is already happen

still u need continue living~

so0 be happie dear =)

i trust u can be ok =)

**fren don need say thx n sorry dats wat frens are to0 understand n be with u when u need US!


-teAmo fren =)
**hughugSSS and kissessssSS**
XOXOXO