pieces to bits....

Maybe after all there is an individual that i can really open up to...
sometimes keep me thinking is this what we are fated with?you to be my Brother, is hard for me not to say NO.
when im in deep trouble with my own self he is the only one i turn to i talk i tell everything nothing for me to hide for him i love him to bits.
It's been a train rack for me struggling with myself on what my goals was.
He is the only one i turn to I wanted him to scold me be tough on me.
I cried
but I NEVER blame him.
instead I thank him.


08/06/11 Wednesday.
Facebook status:

Got scolded from my Brother (GP) makes me cry... BUT it is the best thing that happen to me TODAY... Gor Ily and thank you for taking care of me. :')



Yes it was the best thing that happened on that day!


it makes me cried and how I really wish my brother was there infront of me.
and I'am sorry for dissapoint You and Fam i really do.


till than i just gonna set my goal straight and wait for you to come back :)


*hug you tight tight [strongly]*

Hello HEllo and HELLO to the peeps which I left behind long time ago!
im sorry...~ [if there still left anyone reading my blog]
today 04/06/2011 my brother finally flew off to UK! yes! that MONKEY finally make his way there! I'm happy for you brother! i really do! :) and i really gonna miss messing with you :'(
Just that something flash back 3 years ago when i 1st know you my brother! what if i didnt take volleyball as my cocurricular? hurm i wouldnt know this monkey!
Good Luck! and i hate you so much!!!!!

Last tuesday had a convo with mummy about death.
The convo started up as the main page news about the tragedy at the cemaron highland that killed 22 people? mummy said now everywhere is so dangerous... mummy turn on silent mode when i talked...
i told her... is faithed if god faith you to die that way either way you just have to go.
you wouldnt know what god had actually plan for you. Even if you are lucky could avoid that horrible tragedy soon later maybe not now or later death will eventually come and find you. You even can die out suden in your on house. If you are actually trying to stay safe.
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Lately wasnt feeling myself... what i just feel just something that is hard to describe by words. Even im feeling it but still is hard for me to explain it is suffered. acting like nothing happen infront of people but deep inside i feel like train wreck. but im still greatful i got my brother who actually a person where there NO secrets. i could tell him from A-Z he told me you can cry just cry... let everything out... he know what im actually in right now... GOr thx for hang in there for me... i just cant stop crying lately... im sorry for being weak. :(

a strong mind set is a KEY for an individual to get thru something tough.
life never be easy for ANY individual NO matter you are from MARS or VENUS.
life is hard currently... studies and focusing on instructors things.
there will be someone or somebody will eventually drag or pulling you down.
u can cry u can be sad about it.
but just remember after the "meltdown".
think straight giving up is aint a solution
best solution is believe in yourself you can do what PEOPLE think you cant.
try your best and prove it to yourself YOU are way better than what others said about YOU.
BEST of it! make them EAT their OWN words back! revenge is not about violance.
Revence is about proofing they are wrong! satisfaction to the MAX!

heyYO!!! peeps!!! is been like ages since my last blog.

Been busy alot lately. sorry for neglecting my oh so DEAD blog...

just to infrom my peeps that i wont be that often updating my blog no longer as i use toooo~~~

life has been seriously hatic for me im trying to cope everything at once it is hard but i never back down till i reach the moment that i know it is time to actually losen up alil.

[im still a human ya'll]

-PEACE-

I'am back again with a new post! yeay~ hahax

well im on sem break now! enjoying it to the max coz im doin what i LOVE the most GYM!!!!!!!!

ignore the boring life i had during college time... BORED! to the max!

so hating it...

just start it with last saturday!04/08/10 yeah! so lovin last saturday had fun during launching for the new release!mega launch held at midvalley was whoa! packed!!! but i only manage to join Body Combat nvm still had fun to the max =) after B.Combat we held gathering among wangsa gym member 20 of us!!! we had our dinner at one of the chicken rice shop as other restaurant we select are full such as delicious,nando's etc etc... dont look down at the chicken rice it cost RM501.05 after that we went to starbuck to chill! the night end at 11pm.

Sunday 05/08/10 went to 1U for RPM new release =] it was nice except the last 2 track doesnt suit me but it was ok! had fun and great exercise! other then im dehydrating hahaha after work out had dinner with daddy at Dave's pizza the food is nice! nyum~! and the drink start with H end with N was awesome!!! hahax thx daddy for the well~ PRICY dinner! hugs =)

Monday 06/08/10 Another yet great DAY!!!! well another GYM day! haha went to 1U did pump n combat! EDU u ROCK! <3 rolling rolling ROLLING!!! [proud mary] tomorrow another yet normal gym day! RPM and combat! rock on babeh!

i'am a gym ADDICT! =]

Heyyo Hottie :P hahax certainly a LOL~

well it certainly make John king LOL :P

peeps!! i am back after well very long? -ignore-

as usual been thru alot.. past few WEEKS!!!

well guess what im 20th now sobsobs yaya i know im getting old :P

and im lucky to be freaking a life!!!! involve, well in an accident... nothing major though slam to the divider hurt my knee, signal light smash ermm car arm bend~ front bumper snap on the side,well that practically list down all...

ntg much to update...

just alil confession...

i think i lost it... oh well like seriously lost it... :'(

i donnoe how i lost it in dont know what mist~

my brain just keep putting pro n cons on why how bla bla bla yada yada~~~

i lost focus and guess what i lost it...

now trying so hard to put my mind.. FOCUS!!!!! in 2 years time after this!

my STUDY gotto complete it! god damn it no matter what happen... !even now my interest is deceiving me~ sobs~

[sorry to my friends but i promise i try my hardest okey]

one last word for bloggie I♥G.Y.M sosoo muchie~~~

peeps? still there?!

im back with another post =)

life? well pack (lazy) xP damn just realise been forcing myself to the gym.. like 6 days S.T.R.A.I.G.H.T in 2 weeks i donnoe how much longer i could put up with college classess + assignment + with gym... i think i went crazy over gym... my brother told me that i am super duper into gym i bet there are pple who SUPERB duper into gym more then me lolx...

specking of today (yesterday) 19th JUNE 2010 i went to subang for the mega launch new relase for lesmills programmes cool song for the new release =D but it was tough after RPM and Combat i could feel i start to walk like crab XD to tell the truth i miss the 1st class (RPM) i got lost sumwhere in subang jaya i was late for RPM new realese like for 30min sorry DADDY!!! but hey! i i did went for ur 3PM RPM let you torture you should be happie with it right? =Pafter 15min RPM class ended i went for 2nd class COMBAT!!!! but is was cool BURN BURN BURN all THOSE FAT! =)

after combat had a quicky shower then went for "light" food with daddy melvin chated for like almost an hour went to find my fren walk around the mall then back home...

-end of my day-

-personal-

a friend of mine once said : friend or people around you only could be able to advise you.. the finally decision is still in you. it makes sense. [ i choose to believe in what i believe]

just like what i mention to my brother he is basically the person which i couldnt hide anything is been 2years he is basically the person i could turn to even he IS a MORON but he is still my brother! hey dude i HATE you so MUCH!!! [u noe i mean it]!!! btw bro if u read this when i SAID i MISS YOU!!! i really mean it !!! u jerk! dont ask me go and see a DOCTOR ok?=) but lately there is a person i could well "sometimes" depend on u cute pig!!!... i am happie what i have now xP

back to my blog "space" ntg special actually happened~

same'ol same'ol stuff~ college gym home college gyn home ya basically thats my life...

today wednesday 9june2010 finally i did my ugly new student I.D card.. freaking ugly like grrr~~ donwanna say anything more...

wednesday 090610

morning class 9-12

noon lunch with daddy melvin.. back home at 2pm...

help fren save something then nap from 3-5pm out to the gym RPM with daddy melvin

after that daddy teach me how to use the combat hand wrap...

this is call hand wrap pple use it for muay thai =)

THIS HOW IT LOOK LIKE WHEN U WRAP IT =)

felt like small kid daddy teach me so many time but just felt my hand wrap is so UGLY~

• dont ask me where i get coz i donnoe where to get it...
• dont ask me how much coz is not basically mine daddy gave it to me... [coz he dont like yellow hahax.. but i do think yellow is nice!]

i L.O.V.E my second H.O.M.E!!!!

i really DO!!!